Life As Reality

It seems important to remember life happens. Not as we always hope, but happen it does. Sleep is a luxury, oddly enough, now that I've the time for it I haven't the ease. Hunting for a job isn't what I expected. I realize, while experienced at work, I've no idea how to get a job. There is so MUCH I'd like to do, but no means to get it all done. I would have expected to be able to motivate more, but as it were, there is little to light that fire. Something burns within, but it is unclear what that is. Money is a problem. Time is a problem. Happiness, that is a problem.

On the other hand, the little stomp stomp stomp of my son wandering about the house.. Well, that's just precious. I can't explain how much love can be in one broken heart. Indeed, I can't explain the love of a child and how much it can encompass everything. Trying to focus on that, instead of everything else is my current goal.

Life happens, at times it seems life is happening around me, but it is important to find that gem to bring some sparkle to an otherwise dull existence. So while the world and all it's problems surround me and are flying out of control, maybe my lil diamond can bring me back to some sort of grounding. I do love him so.