Update again!

It's August 1st!!! 2013!

So many things have happened over the past year! WOW, I can hardly find the time to update any of my blogs! What a shame, since I have such awesome ones? LOL.. ya ya, whatever..

Anyway, I can hardly believe I can say.. after well over 10 years, I've finally met my friend Kelly { aka herbal! from yahoo pool..who woulda thunkit? }. So exciting! Jam's family have come to visit in Las Vegas, and also ventured here to LA too! Wow. Just last month I got to go hang out with Kelly and family in Vegas again, literally melted my shoes on the ground outside.. TOO flippin' hot.. but that's fine. We spent time in the pool & got to wander around and otherwise have a great time!

And now it's August 1st! In less than 2 weeks Kenny's going to start Kindergarden.. what?! Really?! Man! It's all flying by. At least this summer, despite our severe lack of funds, we've made wonderful use of our memberships to the Gardens & Zoo. Spent a lot of time outside, I really want Kenny to enjoy it before he gets into school with all the work & homework and what have you.. And in exactly 1 month, what will we be doing? Why Vegas of course! To meet some of Jam's family again. It's exciting especially since it's been SO long since we've seen everyone.

Then there is CL. I am having such a lovely time learning all about my friends there it's amazing. So many of us, different as can be, from all over the place & yet, we seem to have a great bunch! I am making it a goal of mine to meet everyone in the group! I would love to have a great retreat with these ladies one day, a big CL get-together type bash! One day, gotta stay positive.

My kid is going into SCHOOL!?!?!!?!!!.. It's fine.. 

Ok, back to updating the other blog a bit!

It was a nice day!

It was cool.. cold even. It was gray. The kind of day that makes you want to stay in your pjs and snuggle up with a good book, cup of hot tea or hot chocolate, and foster that warm fuzzy feeling.

It RAINED! On my way to work, I got to walk through the teeniest bit of drizzle. And while I was working it rained. By the time I got home it had stopped raining, but the beautiful gray sky & clouds where sticking around. I got to have lunch w/my boys, then Jamie was off to work. Bummer. But shortly there after was nap time, I thought I might just follow suit, but it never happened. Instead I web surfed for ideas. Christmas ideas even! Sad truth is, even though I am working, I get paid once every 5 weeks! I won't be able to get anything for anyone until like the first week of DECEMBER! Leave it to me to be shopping last minute.. Oh well.. better than not at all!

C'est la vie! Eh?

Well, I am in a good mood today. I'm going to relish this! Meanwhile I've got a Mexican/Italian "Meatloaf" in the oven.. with a yummy sauce to go on top in about 10 minutes. The rice is cooking and all I've got left to do is figure out what sorta veggies I want!

Also.. I need to create a Wishlist Doc for my ladies over at CL! It's the best group I've participated in. The ladies are great, the motivation is nice, & our projects & challenges have made it a fun place to check into! Wheeeeeeee! Secret Society is coming up.. boy oh boy, I can't wait!!!

Yay!

Peace & Love,
~D

It's FALL!!!!

Well.. It's most definitely that time again.. to make a post that is!

It's cool today, while these past 3 months I've not turned the AC off for hardly any time at all. The fans run 24hrs a day to provide some air movement in this place. But.. today.. No AC, no fans.. just an open window, that I had to close to barely a crack open!

It's wonderful!

Anyway, on life.. My little boy turned 4.. WOW.. how the heck do I have a 4yr old?! Just days later, we celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary. I've been out of work until then! With the exception of my stint at the portrait studio, which doing sales for the first time, was interesting. Moreover, I enjoyed that part of it. I think because I was dealing with peoples memories & I am all about that. But alas, that job was seasonal. I got a text asking me to come back but.. I have recently started working part-time doing design & prepress.. I make twice what I made there. I think I'll keep this one! I wish the hours were more consistent, but what can I do?! Right now, it's what I need. And I'm beyond thankful to have it!

With the success of one of my FB groups.. CL, I created a blog to match it, I'm hoping it goes better than my other attempts at talking to myself. That's always been my issue, hard to commit when you are writing into thin air with nobody else reading. But it's different there, so I'm hopeful. So far I think it's going well! I love the ladies & I'm enjoying the group.

That's where life is right now.

I want to roast a turkey. It's perfect turkey roasting weather!

~ g'nite world!

Thankfully

Thankfully I am glad I am past the stage of the last post. While I still know and understand that those are my feelings, and that I still maintain they are relevant, I am no longer furious over them. I do feel better, but I have decided to make a change. Change starts within & in the home. So we begin.. Will be back soon with progress / update!

To Whom It May Concern..

How much does one have to be broken to get some help to be made whole again? When do the tides turn and the favors get returned? Why is it that with knowledge of this pain, with pleas for help, with tears and heartache does it not affect you? How is it that there once was so much love and compassion shared, that now in my darkest of hours you are not there? I am not questioning God, in the event someone was wondering... How do I go on? As friends we are supposed to lift each other when we cannot make it on our own. As family we are to support each other when there is no strength left. When one is broken the other is supposed to be there to mend the pieces. I spend my days doing this. It used to be us doing it together, is this what it was supposed to be? Yeah, I know it never is, but if that's the case, then what's the point? You can't even give up a few minutes of sleep to reach out? And even if not sleep, a warm hand on my shoulder for comfort? No, I think we are too content in our ways. Unwilling to bend, willing to break? So sad that we can come so far, yet have only taken steps backwards. How much loss is too much? How much can one heart take? I can't help myself, but to think of the Craig David song: Walking Away. " I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life, I'm walking away oh to find a better day.." But my question is, which one of us is walking away? We used to walk together..

Sick And Tired...

I am sick and tired of being disrespected! AND in my own house. How is it ok to come into my home and say you are going to take some leftovers, make a huge damn mess and just leave the entire mess for me to deal with?!?!?! WTF. Not to mention ruin hours of my work by disregarding my things in my house? I spend time to bake cupcakes for my husbands birthday, you smash half of them with a box of cookies because you don't give a shit. Then come back after the rest of the good cupcakes get placed in the box, then do it again and ruin the rest? I don't understand. But I am sick and tired of this crap and I would be just fine to have you stay out of my home and life for a while.