Ooops!

It's been so LONG! I know I am supposed to be doing MORE writing, but I've taken on so many different projects right now I can't keep up with anything! As soon as I get this last one fully under way, I will return for more posting!

Thankfully

Thankfully I am glad I am past the stage of the last post. While I still know and understand that those are my feelings, and that I still maintain they are relevant, I am no longer furious over them. I do feel better, but I have decided to make a change. Change starts within & in the home. So we begin.. Will be back soon with progress / update!

To Whom It May Concern..

How much does one have to be broken to get some help to be made whole again? When do the tides turn and the favors get returned? Why is it that with knowledge of this pain, with pleas for help, with tears and heartache does it not affect you? How is it that there once was so much love and compassion shared, that now in my darkest of hours you are not there? I am not questioning God, in the event someone was wondering... How do I go on? As friends we are supposed to lift each other when we cannot make it on our own. As family we are to support each other when there is no strength left. When one is broken the other is supposed to be there to mend the pieces. I spend my days doing this. It used to be us doing it together, is this what it was supposed to be? Yeah, I know it never is, but if that's the case, then what's the point? You can't even give up a few minutes of sleep to reach out? And even if not sleep, a warm hand on my shoulder for comfort? No, I think we are too content in our ways. Unwilling to bend, willing to break? So sad that we can come so far, yet have only taken steps backwards. How much loss is too much? How much can one heart take? I can't help myself, but to think of the Craig David song: Walking Away. " I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life, I'm walking away oh to find a better day.." But my question is, which one of us is walking away? We used to walk together..

Sick And Tired...

I am sick and tired of being disrespected! AND in my own house. How is it ok to come into my home and say you are going to take some leftovers, make a huge damn mess and just leave the entire mess for me to deal with?!?!?! WTF. Not to mention ruin hours of my work by disregarding my things in my house? I spend time to bake cupcakes for my husbands birthday, you smash half of them with a box of cookies because you don't give a shit. Then come back after the rest of the good cupcakes get placed in the box, then do it again and ruin the rest? I don't understand. But I am sick and tired of this crap and I would be just fine to have you stay out of my home and life for a while.

Been A While..

It surely has been a while since I've had the energy or desire to post here. Still, here I am, back again to hopefully motivate and get myself going on my blogs again. Started the new years Recipe Swap ( yes, in the beginning of July.. ) I guess we'll see how it goes. After some life changing events ( not the good kind ) I've decided to treat myself better, with any luck I can keep up with the idea and do something decent and good with my life again. Anyway, it has been a great weekend, lots of getting together, hanging out, cooking out. Gotta love that, grillin' and chillin' got to be the way to go on beautiful days like these ( despite the heat ). New food, old friends, good times. Let's hope it continues, updates to follow.

New Idea

I have had a version of this idea for a very long time. While watching Julie & Julia, the idea was realized more fully. As many of you may know, I have several blogs. And while each blog is special and unique to me, I have always had a greater vision, something that would do more than be words/images on the screen. In the movie, she creates a blog with a counter to keep track of how many recipes from Julia Childs book that she has completed. The counter also keeps track of the days left in the year, to keep track of her progress. This is EXACTLY what I want to do. I'd love to even do the recipes however, realistically I know I can't possibly keep up with all the recipes in the right amount of time. Also, I have passions OTHER than cooking, believe it or not! I love photography, travel, and my family which, as it turns out all tend to go together. Even so, I'm not convinced I could keep up with a photo a day, so I've skewed my perspective a bit to incorporate an almost 2 year old son.

Since I have come to terms with my lack of motivation, sad but true, I have derived a way to make my project blog an something attainable yet meaningful. An inspirational blog. The idea is 730 inspirations in 365 days. My idea for an inspirational blog is not exactly what it sounds like. A little background. To the core, I am a hopeless romantic. I look at flowers and smile, clouds, trees, water, children, old people all alike. I am in love with photography, cooking, music, writing, traveling, nature, architecture, technology, the internet, relationships, learning, among other things. So I am proposing an inspirational blog, 730 inspirations from anywhere and everywhere. Hopefully, this can become a photo-journal representation of inspiration. There are SO many inspirational websites that I've seen online. I don't mean that they were meant for that purpose, I found them enchanting for one reason or another. They give me inspiration to do something new, different, or possibly something I've done before and would like to return to.

I hope to achieve a new found purpose. I'd like to do more photography, like to be out in nature more, very much like to travel more. All of these things allow me to do them with my family, so it's just a matter of getting started. However, I have yet to find the type of "counter" for my blog. I am continuing the search, but for now it will just have to be done "old-school" keeping track. Considering we are into March already, and I'm just about to take a trip up to Canada (Calgary, moreover Banff) I am figuring I will start with that trip as my main beginning for the new blog. Perhaps this blog will be a collaborative effort.

Here is to yet another blog! Hope to have it up and running soon and will post the link for all to see!