It was a nice day!

It was cool.. cold even. It was gray. The kind of day that makes you want to stay in your pjs and snuggle up with a good book, cup of hot tea or hot chocolate, and foster that warm fuzzy feeling.

It RAINED! On my way to work, I got to walk through the teeniest bit of drizzle. And while I was working it rained. By the time I got home it had stopped raining, but the beautiful gray sky & clouds where sticking around. I got to have lunch w/my boys, then Jamie was off to work. Bummer. But shortly there after was nap time, I thought I might just follow suit, but it never happened. Instead I web surfed for ideas. Christmas ideas even! Sad truth is, even though I am working, I get paid once every 5 weeks! I won't be able to get anything for anyone until like the first week of DECEMBER! Leave it to me to be shopping last minute.. Oh well.. better than not at all!

C'est la vie! Eh?

Well, I am in a good mood today. I'm going to relish this! Meanwhile I've got a Mexican/Italian "Meatloaf" in the oven.. with a yummy sauce to go on top in about 10 minutes. The rice is cooking and all I've got left to do is figure out what sorta veggies I want!

Also.. I need to create a Wishlist Doc for my ladies over at CL! It's the best group I've participated in. The ladies are great, the motivation is nice, & our projects & challenges have made it a fun place to check into! Wheeeeeeee! Secret Society is coming up.. boy oh boy, I can't wait!!!

Yay!

Peace & Love,
~D

It's FALL!!!!

Well.. It's most definitely that time again.. to make a post that is!

It's cool today, while these past 3 months I've not turned the AC off for hardly any time at all. The fans run 24hrs a day to provide some air movement in this place. But.. today.. No AC, no fans.. just an open window, that I had to close to barely a crack open!

It's wonderful!

Anyway, on life.. My little boy turned 4.. WOW.. how the heck do I have a 4yr old?! Just days later, we celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary. I've been out of work until then! With the exception of my stint at the portrait studio, which doing sales for the first time, was interesting. Moreover, I enjoyed that part of it. I think because I was dealing with peoples memories & I am all about that. But alas, that job was seasonal. I got a text asking me to come back but.. I have recently started working part-time doing design & prepress.. I make twice what I made there. I think I'll keep this one! I wish the hours were more consistent, but what can I do?! Right now, it's what I need. And I'm beyond thankful to have it!

With the success of one of my FB groups.. CL, I created a blog to match it, I'm hoping it goes better than my other attempts at talking to myself. That's always been my issue, hard to commit when you are writing into thin air with nobody else reading. But it's different there, so I'm hopeful. So far I think it's going well! I love the ladies & I'm enjoying the group.

That's where life is right now.

I want to roast a turkey. It's perfect turkey roasting weather!

~ g'nite world!

I'm afraid..

psssst...

I am afraid to make soup..! Isn't that ridiculous?! I just thought I'd share!

Also, I think cooking is sexy.. o.o

Have a great night. Sweet dreams to all!

Ooops!

It's been so LONG! I know I am supposed to be doing MORE writing, but I've taken on so many different projects right now I can't keep up with anything! As soon as I get this last one fully under way, I will return for more posting!

Thankfully

Thankfully I am glad I am past the stage of the last post. While I still know and understand that those are my feelings, and that I still maintain they are relevant, I am no longer furious over them. I do feel better, but I have decided to make a change. Change starts within & in the home. So we begin.. Will be back soon with progress / update!

To Whom It May Concern..

How much does one have to be broken to get some help to be made whole again? When do the tides turn and the favors get returned? Why is it that with knowledge of this pain, with pleas for help, with tears and heartache does it not affect you? How is it that there once was so much love and compassion shared, that now in my darkest of hours you are not there? I am not questioning God, in the event someone was wondering... How do I go on? As friends we are supposed to lift each other when we cannot make it on our own. As family we are to support each other when there is no strength left. When one is broken the other is supposed to be there to mend the pieces. I spend my days doing this. It used to be us doing it together, is this what it was supposed to be? Yeah, I know it never is, but if that's the case, then what's the point? You can't even give up a few minutes of sleep to reach out? And even if not sleep, a warm hand on my shoulder for comfort? No, I think we are too content in our ways. Unwilling to bend, willing to break? So sad that we can come so far, yet have only taken steps backwards. How much loss is too much? How much can one heart take? I can't help myself, but to think of the Craig David song: Walking Away. " I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life, I'm walking away oh to find a better day.." But my question is, which one of us is walking away? We used to walk together..