Sick And Tired...

I am sick and tired of being disrespected! AND in my own house. How is it ok to come into my home and say you are going to take some leftovers, make a huge damn mess and just leave the entire mess for me to deal with?!?!?! WTF. Not to mention ruin hours of my work by disregarding my things in my house? I spend time to bake cupcakes for my husbands birthday, you smash half of them with a box of cookies because you don't give a shit. Then come back after the rest of the good cupcakes get placed in the box, then do it again and ruin the rest? I don't understand. But I am sick and tired of this crap and I would be just fine to have you stay out of my home and life for a while.

Been A While..

It surely has been a while since I've had the energy or desire to post here. Still, here I am, back again to hopefully motivate and get myself going on my blogs again. Started the new years Recipe Swap ( yes, in the beginning of July.. ) I guess we'll see how it goes. After some life changing events ( not the good kind ) I've decided to treat myself better, with any luck I can keep up with the idea and do something decent and good with my life again. Anyway, it has been a great weekend, lots of getting together, hanging out, cooking out. Gotta love that, grillin' and chillin' got to be the way to go on beautiful days like these ( despite the heat ). New food, old friends, good times. Let's hope it continues, updates to follow.

New Idea

I have had a version of this idea for a very long time. While watching Julie & Julia, the idea was realized more fully. As many of you may know, I have several blogs. And while each blog is special and unique to me, I have always had a greater vision, something that would do more than be words/images on the screen. In the movie, she creates a blog with a counter to keep track of how many recipes from Julia Childs book that she has completed. The counter also keeps track of the days left in the year, to keep track of her progress. This is EXACTLY what I want to do. I'd love to even do the recipes however, realistically I know I can't possibly keep up with all the recipes in the right amount of time. Also, I have passions OTHER than cooking, believe it or not! I love photography, travel, and my family which, as it turns out all tend to go together. Even so, I'm not convinced I could keep up with a photo a day, so I've skewed my perspective a bit to incorporate an almost 2 year old son.

Since I have come to terms with my lack of motivation, sad but true, I have derived a way to make my project blog an something attainable yet meaningful. An inspirational blog. The idea is 730 inspirations in 365 days. My idea for an inspirational blog is not exactly what it sounds like. A little background. To the core, I am a hopeless romantic. I look at flowers and smile, clouds, trees, water, children, old people all alike. I am in love with photography, cooking, music, writing, traveling, nature, architecture, technology, the internet, relationships, learning, among other things. So I am proposing an inspirational blog, 730 inspirations from anywhere and everywhere. Hopefully, this can become a photo-journal representation of inspiration. There are SO many inspirational websites that I've seen online. I don't mean that they were meant for that purpose, I found them enchanting for one reason or another. They give me inspiration to do something new, different, or possibly something I've done before and would like to return to.

I hope to achieve a new found purpose. I'd like to do more photography, like to be out in nature more, very much like to travel more. All of these things allow me to do them with my family, so it's just a matter of getting started. However, I have yet to find the type of "counter" for my blog. I am continuing the search, but for now it will just have to be done "old-school" keeping track. Considering we are into March already, and I'm just about to take a trip up to Canada (Calgary, moreover Banff) I am figuring I will start with that trip as my main beginning for the new blog. Perhaps this blog will be a collaborative effort.

Here is to yet another blog! Hope to have it up and running soon and will post the link for all to see!

Happy Girls' Day!

In honor of Girls' Day, I received a tiny silver high heel on a silver chain! How truly suited to me! I can say, for all the times I wished I didn't have to be a girl, some things are so nice. The silver shoe is great for me because it is something I love, don't need, and got anyway. How awesome is it to be a girl when you get things like that?! How truly frivolous and fun, I love it! Some how I find, getting something like this, simple and not outrageous (though some might disagree) is more fun than getting a birthday present.

Wishing all you girls out there, no matter your age, a wonderful Girls' Day! May it be filled of love and tiny silver shoes!

Fractured Spirit

So tiring this business of being tired. It is a truly dark time feeling worthless. Of no use, no consequence. Like not one life touched by your presence or as if you disappeared would have left no mark on life. One person is insignificant in the scheme of all of life, but that one person should have value and virtue. Having touched someone in some way grander than just a stranger passing by. At some point we are all strangers but some how we do bridge the gap to, in some cases, become more than indifferent drifter. Affecting some change in acquaintance growing into something more bonding. Some how we all have that innate need to be understood by another human being. Someone with whom we share an understanding of self, where acceptance and approval can more strongly bound each soul to the other. No matter the outwardly displays of indifference at non-acceptance, there is an inward desire for greater understanding if not hope for approval. There are certain connections that are made throughout life and of those you'd accept nothing less than all of these. And when it doesn't come, what is left of that bond that once was? How does worth get rebuilt? When does something get made of nothing? And how does a million pieces become one again? In the darkness, the answers do not come.

Wanting to move forward

After a slightly successful trip to IKEA today, I feel as though I want to get back into the swing of things. I want to start on all the projects I've been meaning to do, but have been putting off. I want to paint, put together my keepsakes, I want to rearrange and clean up. I want to build my new spice rack and put everything away. Well, shelf system really, but it should do the job just fine. And I'd like to set up my new drawers for my creative goodies to finally be put in their own special place! We'll see what tomorrow brings. Hopefully tonight brings peaceful, restful, sleep for all of you.

Sweet Dreams!